....unsent(nov309)

"..so long my luckless romance my back is turned on you..i should have known
you give me heartaches..almost lover always do.."

...sigh.. why do i let myself fall on your trap?..i know everything is clear to me..your purpose,your motives and what you only like and yet i still go on with my stupidity..but that's enough..lam ko nman walang patutunguhan to..i cannot live on the lies that this relationship brings...there is too much lies..you know that..dont give me the crap that everything is just fine..maybe its enough that i have become a help during the times that you need one..and thats the only help i can give you..if you just took advantage of me, i will just accept the fact that you did..wala na kong magagawa nagyari na..you will be one of those experiences that, in one way or another,help me become bitter or better person..

..just for a start

"isn't anyone tryin' to find me?..wont somebody come take me home?".....

...its time to pour out some of my emotions..sobrang dami na kc..i cant even try to write on my diary coz i think i needed some help from anybody..by the way its my birthday today.."happy birthday to me"...sucks!...im always going through this phase everytime the last quarter of the year is coming...ewan ko ba..its like the season--rainy or sunny..but for me its the rough times...grabe sobrang daming gumugulo sa utak ko...need some clarity...peace...serenity...